20 Oct Delray Rehab Center
Wade the Alcoholic In Delray Beach Part I
Written By Kirk Markey — October 20,2016
A couple posts back, we discussed how the experience of starting a Delray rehab center ran parallel to the process of recovery. The post talked in general terms about the importance of community and group participation. Over the next few posts, we’re going to zone in on how all this might work in actual recovery.
The Delray Rehab Center Experiment
We’re going to do this by inventing a fictional alcoholic named Wade. After we invent him, we’re going to throw him into the deep end of sobriety. We’re going to throw a sampling of typical recovery problems at him and see how he reacts. That way, we can see what does and doesn’t work for sobriety in a (sort of) realistic situation. We’ll see how well Wade applies what he learned in the Delray rehab center.
Wade is a high school math teacher in his mid thirties. He had to give up on his dream of being a physicist when his drinking got him thrown out of grad school. Wade kept drinking though. He couldn’t stop no matter how much he wanted to, even after a drunken argument with a parent got him a leave of absence and mandatory treatment.
After a tough detox, he spent six weeks in treatment at a Delray rehab center. Before leaving, he decided to live in a sober house in Delray Beach instead of going back home immediately. Wade’s been out of rehab for three weeks and things are starting to go haywire.
Reality Sets in on Poor Wade
Life happens, even when an alcoholic is trying to get sober. Life started happening for Wade a couple of weeks after he left the Delray rehab center. It didn’t start on the outside though, not like Wade expected. It started in his alcoholic mind, which has always imagined that everything it took in was another sign of Wade’s failure.
Wade was at a coffee shop when it happened, waiting to meet a 12 step contact he’d made at the Delray rehab center. There was an attractive young couple sitting a few tables away. They were talking quietly and smiling at one another. As Wade watched, the woman laughed softly at something the man said. Suddenly, Wade felt a terrible combination of sadness and rage come over him. Then a terrible pang of jealousy ran through him and Wade felt impossibly lonely.
Wade’s Alcoholic Mind in Action
It was at this moment that his alcoholic mind took over, just like they’d taught him at the Delray rehab center. It transformed these painful feelings into self hatred. It told him that he could never make a woman laugh, not a failure like him. Then it insisted the man at the table was better than him, that he was better looking, happier, more successful.
When it was done with that torment, it told him to leave the coffee shop before the 12 step contact arrived. Wade didn’t want a drink, not yet, but he didn’t want to face himself either. It was pathetic to need help, his mind said. Then it said it again. It was still saying it when Wade got up and walked out of the shop.